ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY SINCE I FINISHED TREATMENT

HOWDY, HOWDY, HOWDY ALL.....ITS ONE MONTH YESTERDAY THAT I FINISHED THE CHEMO/RAD TREATMENTS AND AND I AM HAPPY TO REPORT TAHT I CAN ACTUALLY POOP PAINFREE......WOW O WOW......DID ANY OF US EVER THINK THAT WE WOULD BE SAYING SOMETHING SO SILLY!??

SOOOOO ON SATURDAY SEPT 15TH, I DECIDED TO ESCAPE FROM ANY AND ALL CANCER BLOGS, DISCUSSIONS, THOUGHTS, WORRIES, VISITS TO THE DOCTORS, AND JUST TRY TO START LIVING MY LIFE..... I FELT THAT I HAD SOMEHOW JUST LOST MY WAY....CANCER TOTALLY CONSUMED EACH AND EVERY DAY AND I WAS FUCKING TIRED OF IT.....

MANY MANY DAYS I WANTED TO WRITE BUT I JUST HAD TO STAY IN MY ZONE AND FOCUS ON MY BOOTY HOLE AND GROINARY AREAS AND MAKE THEM WHOLE AGAIN..... THE GROIN AREA HEALED LIKE THE FOLLOWING WEEK BUT THE BOOTY ISSUE TOOK UNTIL THIS WEEK--TUESDAY I WAS ABLE TO PASS POOP AND IT WAS NOT SCREAMING TIME....... MORE LIKE CLINCHED TEETH TIME....... AND BY TODAY..... ITS A MERE ANNOIANCE.!

THE WEEK AFTER I WENT SILENT, I TOOK SOME FANTASTIC COOKIES TO MY RADIOLOGY AND CHEMO INVERSION CLINICS AND THANKED THEM FOR THE KINDNESS, THOUGHTFULNESS, AND GENUINE GENTLENESS THAT THEY SHOWED NOT ONLY ME BUT ALL OF THE PATIENTS THAT CAME AND WENT FROM THE CLINICS.

I AM ALSO HUMBLED AND ETERNALLY GRATEFUL AND JUST GOBSMACKED BY THE AMOUNT OF KINDNESS AND LOVE AND CARING THAT I HAVE FOUND ON THIS BLOG..... SO MANY OF YOU HAVE ENCOURAGED ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY AND GAVE ME THE STRENGHT AND THE STORIES OF COURAGE I NEEDED TO MAKE MY JOURNEY THRU HELL BEARABLE.

LASTLY, MY FRIENDS HERE IN LOS ANGELES AND MY TENANTS, HAVE ALSO BEEN THERE FOR ME AND HAVE PITCHED IN WHERE NEEDED.  YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL STEP UP WHEN THE NEED ARISES AND I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR THE LOVING GESTURES BY ALL CONCERNED.

THE LAST TWO WEEKS I HAVE BEEN WORKING FULL TIME AND STILL HAVE ENERGY TO SPARE.... HAVE ALSO STARTED GOING OUT TO RESTAURANTS AND NOT BEING AFRAID OF BLOWING UP BECAUSE I ATE SOME FOOD THAT WOULD NOT AGREE WITH ME.

I AM PROB AT LIKE 95% NORMAL AND AM HAVING AT LEAST TWO BOWEL MOVEMENTS A DAY NOW...... THE ONLY MED I AM TAKING IS MY ALLERGY ONE FOR THIS TIME OF YEAR AND 100 MG OF STOOL SOFTENER.  

I KNOW I AM BACK CAUSE TODAY I WENT TO A BURGER PLACE AND STUFFED MY FACE WITH MEAT AND POTATOES FOLLOWED BY A BROWNIE AND VANILLA ICE CREAM!:)

AND ONCE AGAIN, I AM STILL SHOCKED AND EXTREMELY SADDENED TO COME BACK ON THIS WONNERFUL SITE AND SEE ALL OF THE NEW FACES WHO HAVE BEEN STRUCK BY THIS DREADFUL THING.

i think about you all every day and will continue to check in hopefully on a weekly basis...... i have gone back to trying to get my cabin in the mountains ready so my doggies and i can spend the week of xmas to new years there.  my guys will be there working most every weekend save for turkey day.

my best wishes and thoughts and positive vibes to each and every one of you..... you all have become my extended internet family

richard cadena

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Reading this just made my day! I am going to call you soon to make a lunch date.
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give Chuck your number so he can give it to me and I will call you tomorrow Al.
Yay!!
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What a wonderful post to read first thing this morning! Wow, I am totally amazed at your speedy recovery and I am so happy for you! I hope you will stop in here now and then and let us know how you're doing and giving those who need it some good encouragement. Enjoy your days, your doggies and thta cabin in the mountains, which sounds fabulous! Take good care, Richard!
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LOVE this!!! ♥️
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Oh Richard was thinking about u. I am so happy to read this that u are doing well. I go for my last treatment today and your post gives me happy days to look forward to. For me, I still have Forest visible and it worries me at this juncture that he might not leave completely. Please do continue to check in with your progress
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HOORAY HOORAY FOR YOUR LAST TREATMENT.....IT ENDS ONE CRAPPY JOURNEY AND OPENS UP ANOTHER JOURNEY THAT ONLY BRINGS YOU POSITIVE RECOVERY..... you will get there....one day at a time is the only way:):)
I figured you were taking a break from social media, etc. Cancer becomes so life consuming and I hear you. I'm so glad you are doing better. You'll see so many ups and downs in the coming years, but I think after awhile things to level off for some of us. You sound like you're way on the road to recovery but remember self care is so important. Start living the second act...there are so many things to do. Hugs...Lisa
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Richard, I was shouting really loudly from NL for you to send us a message! This message is just perfect, thank you for listening. It's amazing how well you have done, poops down to 2 a day, I am envious, Strange to say that but you know what I mean. I remember doing way more than that, and it is only in the last few months that I can eat everything (almost) again without upsetting my digestion.
Well done, you have passed with flying colours!
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the funny thing with the eating was that I was soooo frightened that if I ate this or that---that I would blow up!!! and finally one day I walked round the corner to the local pollo loco and had 2 thighs and veggies and I did not blow up nor did I suffer a "lava rock" bowel moment... then the next day I went and had brunch--scrambled eggs with hash browns and fantastic bacon and again---did not blow up......
Yes, please don't be a stranger...your posts are wonderful (and it's important for this community that guys post here too!) Hope the "new normal" is good to you!
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thanks for all of your comments Helen because it does make a difference when your down to receive messages from others who have been there and offer you positive vibes/prayers/etc. and yes, I do agree that there should be more messages from guys---don't know why its not but I will certainly continue to post--not daily but hopefully weekly as I think its a very important way for me to "PAY IT FORWARD" and give encouragement to those coming up behind me.
Richard,
This is Val. You have my number... I will call you this week. :D
as in Doobie Val????
Yes!!! :D
I had you confused with a jazz piano player I know..... hadden talked to each other in years!!!!!
Richard,
First..WOW! No pain this soon?? Wonderful!!
Yes, it is important to reclaim one's life, after being IMMERSED in doctor's visits, treatment, pain, "accidents", yada, yada...
Congratulations on completing therapy and doing SO WELL, so quickly. Truly. I worked (as a nurse on a Medical Unit, in a hospital) through treatment--yes, it was difficult, but I made it. Well, I am "wanderingI guess.
Just glad all is working out.
Carol P.
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Great news. I totally understand your taking a break. I did the same thing. Amazing that you are healed enough to eat without fear and energy to spare! Took a long time for me. But I am thrilled for you and your plans for the mountains sounds like heaven. Enjoy!
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You have been such an encouragement. I loved reading your posts, but am truly sorry you had to post.

I'm glad you are doing better. Be gentle with yourself.
glad you're doing well. You have a great attitude :) I loved all the people that helped me thru my radiation and my doctors were wonderful. I saw my oncologist in Macys and I cried when i introduced her to my cousin (who has passed from ovarian cancer RIP) I said this is dr so and so and she saved my life, and the dr said No she saved her own life. she was great and a sense of humor! thats what i needed then. Take care.
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July 10, 2018

Los Angeles, California 90005

February 6, 1951

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

squamous cell carcionoma

June 4

Stage 3

4.1 - 5.0 cm

Negative

No

the fears associated with it, the unknown, the WAIT FOR THIS TO START

always learning

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not as of 6/04/2018

WEST LOS ANGELES V.A. MEDICAL CENTER-WESTWOOD

a week after having completed my PSA and urine tests(5/22/18), i noticed blood in the toilet and completed the F.I.T--fecal immunochemical test.... I forgot to mail it in and drove to the VA and had them give me another one, did it and that afternoon i returned it...two days later i received a call to schedule a colonoscopy for June 04, 2018. results came back positive for a ployp that was excised and also a 4-5cm malignant growth on the dentate line of the anus--right smack in/around my spinchter muscle. T3N0M0...prognosis seems to be really good as it has not traveled nor gone into nodes. scheduled to start chemo/radiation with 5-FU and mitomyacin first 4 days and last 4 days using a PICC line.

AM NOT USING THE 5-FU....INSTEAD ITS CAPECITABINE 500MG

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