I AM SADDENED BY THE LOSS AND THRILLED BY THE NEWS

good evening all, so this has been a week of extreme happiness and gut renching saddness.

monday morning i was walking Ozzy, my youngest doxie and out of nowhere and in a split nano second, he jumped sideways and bit a lady that walked by us.

it was 15-20 minutes of shouting, screaming, crying and all the while i am holding Ozzy tightly while i tried to calm the lady down--she spoke very little english and i spoke no korean.  finally a tenant brought down a first aid kit and patched her up a bit and i convinced her that i should take her to a urgent care clinic.  she finally agreed and i took Ozzy back into the apartment and got my van and together with Ivonne, my employee, and the lady we drove off.   luckily at the clinic the doctor that tended to her wound spoke korean and calmed her down, gave her a shot and antibiotics and sent her on her way.  on the way back, she became relaxed and friendly and i took her to her dentist appointment all the while thinking about what i am going to do with Ozzy.  i knew that he would not be able to stay with me because knowing that he had bit someone, i could not take the chance of him biting anybody else.

i wound up having the adoption people come and pick him up and take him straight to a trainer.  i love my Ozzy but at the end of the day, unless i can be basically guaranteed that he will not bite again, i cannot have him back....Baby misses him and there is a void that only time will fill..... we love you Ozzy.

i had my PET/CAT SCAN A WEEK AGO THIS LAST WEDNESDAY AND MY RAD. ONCOLOGIST WAS TO CALL ME THE FOLLOWING DAY...... TURNS OUT HE AND HIS FAMILY GOT THE FLU AND HE WAS OUT OF COMMISSION UNTIL THIS THURSDAY.  FRIDAY MORNING AT BOUT 9:30 HE CALLED AND GAVE ME THE NEWS THAT I HAD EXPECTED........ I PROMISED MYSELF BEFORE I STARTED THIS TREATMENT/TORTURE REGIME THAT IF I DID NOT MISS ANY SESSIONS THAT I WOULD GET THRU IT AND IT WOULD BE OBLITERETED/BURNED TO A CRISP/ERASED/ETC.

AND IT IS COMPLETELY GONE.... THE DOC SAID THAT IT WAS EVEN BETTER THAN HE EXPECTED, CANT EVEN SEE WHERE IT WAS BEFORE.!

MY WAY OF DEALING WITH THIS CRAPPY ASSED CANCER IS TO VIEW IT EITHER AS COMPLETELY GONE OR STILL HERE...... 

I CHOOSE TO SEE IT AS COMPLETELY GONE........ CHEMO/RADIATION DRAGGED ME THRU THE GUTTERS AND ITS A MIRACLE THAT I AM STILL ALIVE..... AND IF IT DID THAT TO ME...... I MY MIND IT DESTROYED THE TUMER---spelling doesnt look right--who cares

I WILL GET 45 DAY CHECK UPS AND IF NEEDED, SCANS EVERY 45 DAYS OR EVERY 3 MONTHS.

still battling this cough....though i feel it finally dying out.... a lot less coughing and more phleme being extracted.

i thought that i had regained most of my weight that was lost and turns out that i have only gained 2 pounds.....its gonna take time

my new normal is starting to loose the hair on my head, still have that sensation on the soles of my feet, some cramping on my fingers and lately, extreme itching-doctor thinks its a reaction to the antibiotics for the cought. finally got some pills that dull the itching and a balm to rub on my body.

all in all........ i am going well....... i wish you all a wonnderful and joyous weekend and a fattening and gluttonous turkey day.

richard cadena

Helen Marshall threw a punch at your cancer.
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Sorry about Ozzy. So so happy for.your results!
I'm so sorry Ozzie bit someone, but you did right by sending him to a trainer. You also had to protect your other dogs, and, hmmmm, your bank account, if you get my point. Because without that you can't take care of yourself or your pets. Congratulations on your medical testing. In reference to the weight issue, give it time. I still haven't gained back the 13 lbs I lost 6 years ago and I was thin before diagnosis. Have a blessed turkey day.
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So sorry about your little dog, but perhaps working with the trainer will make him adoptable by someone else. Thank goodness for clear scans! I am so happy for you! I hope all of your other lingering side effects and that cough are on their way to being gone.

As for weight, before cancer treatment, I weighed between 105 and 110 pounds. Post-treatment, I weigh in around 95 pounds, even 10 years after treatment. One of the issues I believe I have is malabsorption syndrome, meaning my body does not absorb nutrients and fats from the foods that I eat. This syndrome can happen when the intestines have been damaged, which yeah, mine were scorched by the radiation. The downside is I have a hard time finding clothes small enough and my hair and nails are not very healthy. The upside is I can pretty much eat whatever I want without gaining a pound. Bring on the Thanksgiving feast! ;)

I hope you have a nice turkey day.
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Sad that the dog bit that laby, must have been shocking for the both of you! You handled it right though, and I really hope the dog and the lady forgive you.
As for the weight, it may or may not come back to prior treatment times. If you like being thin, then it must be great to eat whatever you like and not gain weight! I can gain weight now, it took 18 months to get to this stage. But I don't want to gain tooooo much.
Great results! Hoorah!!
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A sad story but refreshing to see someone do the right thing. It's very sad to lose a pet too. Have you given any consideration as to why Ozzie may have acted out like this. Your right, you can't keep a dangerous animal. Hopefully the woman is doing well.

Congrats on your cancer results. You have taken an amazing journey and come out on top. That makes us all happy!
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So happy about your results, just really good news in the midst of all the bad these days. It makes me hopeful that my results will be good also. Sorry u have to give Ozzy away. I was heartbroken when I had to give my toddler pitbull Conan away or else getting denied for homeowners insurance. At least he went to a loving family and I'm sure Ozzy will be loved too.
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I lost over 15 pounds and it took a year to regain. When I tried eating ice cream to hasten the process, ended up in the hospital with "Food Protein-Induced Endometriosis!" Had developed an immune system reaction to dairy protein as the result of the chemo. This treatment has lots of surprises! (I had not realized that the main ingredient in commercial ice cream is NOT cream!) But all is well now, the only thing I still have trouble with is chiles...throat cannot tolerate them. Hang in there!!!
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Great news from your doctor! Wonderful!!!!! Sad about Ozzy though. They're like our furry little children. Sending you hugs!
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Richard, Richard, Richard....I am not going to worry about you...your attitude speaks louder than words....you are choosing humor and acceptance over this basted cancer...that's the only way to beat this thing....Cancer cannot stand humor...it wants you to cry and feel sorry for yourself...Go get um Richard...
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July 10, 2018

Los Angeles, California 90005

February 6, 1951

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

squamous cell carcionoma

June 4

Stage 3

4.1 - 5.0 cm

Negative

No

the fears associated with it, the unknown, the WAIT FOR THIS TO START

always learning

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not as of 6/04/2018

WEST LOS ANGELES V.A. MEDICAL CENTER-WESTWOOD

a week after having completed my PSA and urine tests(5/22/18), i noticed blood in the toilet and completed the F.I.T--fecal immunochemical test.... I forgot to mail it in and drove to the VA and had them give me another one, did it and that afternoon i returned it...two days later i received a call to schedule a colonoscopy for June 04, 2018. results came back positive for a ployp that was excised and also a 4-5cm malignant growth on the dentate line of the anus--right smack in/around my spinchter muscle. T3N0M0...prognosis seems to be really good as it has not traveled nor gone into nodes. scheduled to start chemo/radiation with 5-FU and mitomyacin first 4 days and last 4 days using a PICC line.

AM NOT USING THE 5-FU....INSTEAD ITS CAPECITABINE 500MG

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